RIP, Dolores!

Except for Dolores’ relatives, colleagues, or friends, I probably am one of the people who would most likely get quoted making a Dolores O’Riordan reference in about anything (because I make them all the time). Like if I saw someone in bobbed cut, I will say, “you look like Dolores O’Riordan”, or if someone is just so pale white and bobbed and pierced, I will say, “she looks like Dolores” (stupid connection – black and white videos) or if someone has the same set of front teeth, like Maritoni Fernandez’s – I’d say, “she looks like Dolores O’Riordan” and someone would say, “who?” And I’d say, “the frontmanwoman of The Cranberries”, not everyone knew of her name.

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I love her. She was so petite yet super powerful. Her face radiated certain angst. I have tried copying her look at one point in my life, it was a failed attempt though. I liked her smile.

My favorite song of The Cranberries is Promises – so angry, yet loving. I love singing this song.

My friends probably think that I like Linger more because I sing it all the time. I sing it in Karaoke sessions and I once sang it in a band. I wasn’t in a band like a member (I wish), I was called by the band to sing with them and just as they suspected, I have chosen to sing Linger. I also once made a mix tape to an unrequited love, albeit a CD, the concept was as cheesy. I loved the song back when I was lonely. I loved hurting myself with sad songs and that’s why this WAS a mantra.

Was it just a game to you?

But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger

Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn’t be so confused and I wouldn’t feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

That’s the song of the people who love hurting and re-hurting themselves.

Dreams also is one of the faves, plus, it was on my favorite movie too, You’ve Got Mail. It was really a good song to sing with (ala Dolores) and the lyrics were amazing, unfortunately, it was jologsified in the Philippines. The Streetboys (a popular dance group in the Philippines) performed it and it got so much following — the crowd made it one of their signature dance moves and since they’re so popular, it was played over and over in jeepneys, on the streets, everywhere losing the essence of the song since it was just out there to be danced, people didn’t care what the song says. It happened to Umbrella too (which is OK for me) and Sean Kingston’s Beautiful Girls (should I be bothered?)

As I wrap this blog, I am singing Ode to My Family inside my head while reminiscing how the lyrics were botched on the local song-hits back then.

Rest in Peace Dolores!

Note: Song-hits are magazines containing lyrics and chords of music, usually the hits and chart-toppers.