Patunayan Mo

Note: This is a Filipino Christian Song

Kalimutan muna ang nakaraan
Ngayo’y nakalaan, ang buhay mo sa ‘ting Panginoon
Mga dati mong gawi, na palagi ng mali
At hindi kasiya-siya sa Maykapal

Kung noon ang naghahari ay galit
Ngayon ang kapalit,
pag-ibig na nanggagaling kay Hesus
Ang baku-bakong landas
Tinuwid na ng Mesias
Patunayan mong ikaw ngayo’y ligtas

Mayron bang tuwid ang isip
Na naglinis at nagbihis,
Ngunit ang isinuot ay dati nyang damit?

Ang alak na mamahalin
Kung kailangan mang isalin
Ang paglalagyan mo ba’y tapayang luma rin?

Kalimutan muna ang nakaraan
Ngayo’y nakalaan, ang buhay mo sa ‘ting Panginoon
Mga dati mong gawi, na palagi lang mali
At hindi kasiya-siya sa Maykapal

Mayron bang tuwid ang isip
Na naglinis at nagbihis,
Ngunit ang isinuot ay dati nyang damit?

Ang alak na mamahalin
Kung kailangan mang isalin
Ang paglalagyan mo ba’y tapayang luma rin?

Kung noon ang naghahari ay galit
Ngayon ang kapalit,
pag-ibig na nanggagaling kay Hesus
Ang baku-bakong landas
Tinuwid na ng Mesias
Patunayan mong ikaw ngayo’y ligtas

Patunayan mong ikaw ngayo’y ligtas

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RIP, Dolores!

Except for Dolores’ relatives, colleagues, or friends, I probably am one of the people who would most likely get quoted making a Dolores O’Riordan reference in about anything (because I make them all the time). Like if I saw someone in bobbed cut, I will say, “you look like Dolores O’Riordan”, or if someone is just so pale white and bobbed and pierced, I will say, “she looks like Dolores” (stupid connection – black and white videos) or if someone has the same set of front teeth, like Maritoni Fernandez’s – I’d say, “she looks like Dolores O’Riordan” and someone would say, “who?” And I’d say, “the frontmanwoman of The Cranberries”, not everyone knew of her name.

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I love her. She was so petite yet super powerful. Her face radiated certain angst. I have tried copying her look at one point in my life, it was a failed attempt though. I liked her smile.

My favorite song of The Cranberries is Promises – so angry, yet loving. I love singing this song.

My friends probably think that I like Linger more because I sing it all the time. I sing it in Karaoke sessions and I once sang it in a band. I wasn’t in a band like a member (I wish), I was called by the band to sing with them and just as they suspected, I have chosen to sing Linger. I also once made a mix tape to an unrequited love, albeit a CD, the concept was as cheesy. I loved the song back when I was lonely. I loved hurting myself with sad songs and that’s why this WAS a mantra.

Was it just a game to you?

But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger

Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn’t be so confused and I wouldn’t feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

That’s the song of the people who love hurting and re-hurting themselves.

Dreams also is one of the faves, plus, it was on my favorite movie too, You’ve Got Mail. It was really a good song to sing with (ala Dolores) and the lyrics were amazing, unfortunately, it was jologsified in the Philippines. The Streetboys (a popular dance group in the Philippines) performed it and it got so much following — the crowd made it one of their signature dance moves and since they’re so popular, it was played over and over in jeepneys, on the streets, everywhere losing the essence of the song since it was just out there to be danced, people didn’t care what the song says. It happened to Umbrella too (which is OK for me) and Sean Kingston’s Beautiful Girls (should I be bothered?)

As I wrap this blog, I am singing Ode to My Family inside my head while reminiscing how the lyrics were botched on the local song-hits back then.

Rest in Peace Dolores!

Note: Song-hits are magazines containing lyrics and chords of music, usually the hits and chart-toppers. 

When a Song is Just Song

I always have my Spotify playlist ready whenever I go for shower but today, I decided to go random! I believe I had an extra 10-minute shower time because I enjoyed the songs perhaps? It was random and yes, I still had a lot of Hillsong, but what had me is One Last Cry, not Brian’s but rather a rendition of some unknown person. It was also good.

Anyway, because of that, I decided to find a list called “senti” and voila, it took me 15 years back! The time I was in love with Out of My League and If You’re Not the One. I remember crying inside the FX having heard the latter for the first time. I was able to relate to death having been filled with feelings of “unrequited love” that time. That feeling killed my spirit. It was more painful than being on a relationship with a cheater.

I have no regrets about my life, the mistakes and bad choices led me into this wonderful togetherness with my husband. I was just happy to relive the feeling of youth and getting moments flashing back like I was younger, giddy and full of strength to face life without consequences. That is something I definitely miss.

But as I was listening to One Last Cry, I was thinking that I haven’t felt that hurting feeling for the longest time and I am happy. Imagine forgetting the feeling of heartbreak? It was an awesome blessing from God above because I was actually unable to relate to the song! Then I realized it’s been years since I am unable to, however it was only now that I tried to listen as in “literally listen…” I felt nothing, there’s nada! Zero, nil! No feelings at all. For the old me, that song was like a life mantra but now, that song was only a song.

Thanks for that amazing feeling Lord!