I was singing this song entitled, “Tagumpay Man o Kabiguan” (a praise song popularized by a Filipino group called Papuri Singers) – it’s on Spotify (please stream it to know how the song goes – it’s really oldschool but — a true classic!)
Tila kaydaling magpasalamat sa Diyos
Sa mga pagpapalang lagi Niyang kaloob
Ngunit kung may dusa at may kalungkutan
Tila ba kayhirap ang Siya’y pasalamatan
The first verse was about how easy it is to thank the Lord for the blessings that He has given us but it is really difficult to find the drive to thank Him amidst sufferings and grief.
Tila ba kayhirap magbigay ng papuri
Kung mga kabiguan nadaramang lagi
Natitirang pag-asa’y tila ba maglalaho
Sa nadaramang paghihirap ng puso
This verse talks about how hard it is to praise the Lord especially when you feel as if you’re always failing — your heart feels hopeless.
Ngunit ang pangako N’yay wag kang maninimdim
Pagkatapos ng gabi, araw ay darating
Luha sa mga mata’y kanyang papahirin
Paghihirap ng puso’y kanyang papawiin
This talks about God’s promise that we shouldn’t worry about a thing because after the night’s over, another day will come. God will wipe your tears away and relieve your heart from the heavy load.
Sa lahat ng sandali Siya’y pasalamatan
Sa buhay man may tagumpay o may kabiguan
Pangako ng Diyos ay lagi mong panghawakan
Di Niya tayo iiwan o pababayaan
This says that we should thank the Lord at all times — in success or failure. We should always cling onto His promise that He will never leave us, nor forsake us.
I really thought I can sing this song without tearing up. I have had too many heartbreaks and fears in the past years / these days actually. There are times when I cannot seem to put my faith in the proper perspective. There are times that worries consume me. My energy gets drained because I worry a lot.
This is what I remind myself, “I have my God who will comfort me at times that I am too drained to function.”
Can one worship in pain? Can we worship amidst the times that we feel like God’s abandoned us? Yes! Because this is the time to call for Him. Cry to Him! Communicate with Him. He is an omniscient God who has reasons behind all the tears that’s we shed.
I have been worshiping God in my lamentations for I know that He is the only one who will never get tired to listen. He is my comforter and my strength. I am thankful for the trials that He’s brought into me because I learned how to call for Him. I have realized His power over me! He is indeed mighty to save!